Flowings of Your Everlasting Taffyman

I wasnt even thinking about personal things, and laurel just made me teary eyed with that sort of bittersweet joy from a post she made a few days ago.

I was hoping to find more messages in my in box.
steve says he might have to leave from krakow... which means a little extra stress and more moving, (less hostels?)

Its funny to think so many people in my life just had this huge event happen to them that will change their lives forever... i wasnt even around..
Pete and illy got my back in being behind schedule...
Its funny... had i done a normal program (4 years) and not ever gone to europe I would have graduated yesterday. how different would life be?
I wouldnt know the same people, probably wouldnt be as confident..

im at an internet cafe that has a jazz cafe next to it, with a live band (right out side the door) ... im almost staying here just because im fairly sure this internet is cheaper than a coke next door, and the jazz is free in here...
smooth jazz...
oh man... oh man do i miss music.
im practically creaming my cargo pants right now... (dont worry, as they are my only pair of pants, they are already quite stained!)

anyway....

there is a "crazy guy" living in our room (for a month) at the funky chicken hostel.. he apparently made one request upon paying or whatever... "no americans in the room" SOOOO IM FROM WINNIPEG!!!!
canadian eh..
but what if funny is that he is from california... and looks like rasputin... (which is awesome)
he talks in his sleep and yells out things like "thats slanderous!"
and seems to have spent a lot of time in china..

we watched old movies in the common room last night, and it was wonderfully relaxing. I might stay here for a week just for the tv... and the cheapness.
my hostel costs 10$ and pizza hut costs 7$ for two drinks garlic bread and a personal pan pizza.

The city itself (bucharest romania) is not at all what i expected. My only experiance here before, was an hour spent at the train station, on the infamous budapest to anywhere train... (it connects in sofia bulgaria to istanbul -thessoloniki -and all of yugoslavia...)
anyway my hour here in 2002 was waiting patiently on the train while little kids snuck on to steal and sell things like food and toys. and men tried to get you off the train (by talking through your window) distracting you so the kids could steal... thus i felt like i was in some non european country... when we got here this time (i been hanging out with an actual canadian, whos kind of funny in a weird way and has done a lot of traveling) i walked out of the station to a lush green park, beautiful monuments, large buildings, grass and flowers.... true the city is dirty and there are some people begging and things, but it is eastern europe (so thats normal) basically i would say it looks as good as central europe... and not at all non european...
its nice though... i like it.

hmmmm anything else to tell you...
uh i wish i had wireless access, i have a new poem (its kind of weird) its both feminist and mysogistic at the same time... im writing a series of poems on the adam and eve thing, and that one basically says that adam is very thankful to have eaten the apple of whatever because then (knowing shame and bad things and such) he also sees beauty... and especially in women he sees beauty (this is not to be homophobic or anything, but i think that it applies the same for homosexual encounters) the reason its a little antifeminist, is it has that familiar ring to it of "is woman sex?" because of course as part of the whole "kicked out of the garden thing" men and women have sex with all its beauty and ugliness..
and since the poem is from adam's perspective, one point he makes is that he is happy to follow eve because she is sexy.

anyway i think the next one will in some way encorporate the needed apologies, the blame and things, the way "eve has tried to make it up, by allowing herself to be hurt, and adam has taken advantage of this"


in other art news, i havent done anything new, since i realized my art book was bleeding colored pencil from page to page...
i will, just got sidetracked..
but i took pictures from my sketch pad which i can put online eventually.
um i drew some pictures for some little girls on the train to thessoloniki...
that train ride sucked... and because i got to the station very late and it was very crowded the woman who sold me the ticket thought i wanted 2 and didnt have time to give me a refund... so that was 20 bucks thrown away...
then the train was packed and people had to stand the whole time... (i got a seat)
actually i offered my seat to an older gentleman who stood near me by his seated wife... and he refused with a smile... later i saw him get a seat... and give it up to the first woman he saw who needed one... which put a huge smile on my face.

hmmmmm phone calls have been wonderful... i wish it had been this way the whole time... im wondering if i should try again with the ones i have...
i could never get them to work with out a lot of hassle.

only 3 weeks left...
i love all of you. thanks
peace and love and much respect
taff