ever wake up at like the end of a night? this keeps happening, due i assume to the 2 hours of sleep i get each night, i keep falling asleep at like 5-6 and waking up later.
tonight it was like 6, meaning i missed the battle of the bands, dinner, lap dance lessons, and a host of other shit before i woke up at 2:30 when everyone was either passing out or about to go watch a boring movie. This sucks. plus im fairly sure i was crabby to becky, and now shes probably mad, considering i was spose to do half that stuff with her. So yeah...

tomorrow i get to wake up at 9 again instead of a normal saturday hour so i can go to some stupid retreat thing and learn how to do a service learning project. wow. i didnt have dinner. nothing is open. i have little to no food.
i wish i could go back to sleep but it was one of those "wake up cuz ur done sleeping" things

I want to have arguments with several of my teachers...

Cody is in the house. (he broke his ankle, and uh well jumping down the stairs is not cool.

im in a girls room, three chicas and a cody, sitting around gossiping.

hmmm. things been kind of slow. becky is in a philosophy class and she was asking me about some god related stuff. um we had a big religious conversation last night. like 6 people and a couple watching. ummm morris is not the pot capital of minnesota. morris is too small we will be bored this weekend.

a few days ago i burned myself on the floor lounge (while making a pizza) a min ago i hit that exact spot on the edge of the desk. I think something is trying to tell me i should cut off my arm.

my mother has been making a big deal out of calling her for like a week now. I finally get a hold of her and she tells me shit she could have said in an e mail easy.

Food service got a d- tonight. It was shite mate.

i gotta do my homework, shower get out of this pissy mood.

Aimee said something about wanting me to write that she had forgiven me for being an asshole or something, but i fell asleep before writing another post and then couldnt remember exactly what the quote she would have had me write was...

i wanna sing in the shower, but eh damien rice is too quiet, slow paced, and thats what we're listening to right now....



"somethings in life may change and somethings stay the same......like time"

And the king is in his court, counting all his diamonds, one by one they do fall... all powerful giants and their persuasion doesnt change the laws of gravity. Spend their time resting by rivers and finding alternative methods through meditation and I think I should too. Seeking, chasing as they say, calling out for a card to complete the set. Infinite space and exploration can start in a desk drawer, closet cases, the apathetic call it mind disgracing. Simple thoughts answers and questions, comments on existence yours mine I ME MY YOU seem cold tonight. You seem wanting. I seem departing and with it i think of subtle visions of jungles and swinging, open doors and find the same cold interiors made by the constant wind and the open windows, we could and should and would but we choose to keep open or maybe its our experiences and advisors. Short jokes comment on possibilities we never took. I seem in need of revolution, i seem in need cuz i feel satisfied.

(this hasnt anything to do with anyone but myself, no worries mate)

I got a big mouth, still i never say whats important.

"You see 'cause that stone fell through my pocket
and that lock of hair flew away with the wind
If you chance to meet upon either
well you know where they've been
but don't pick them up or try to find me
they're much happier to be on their own
beauty like that knows no home
and then if you take a look, a look down the road
you'll see a badger and a one eyed toad
they won't say a word they'll just look at you
with that wise look of the old"


I have become somewhat bitter and i suck, someone should knock me down. This political shit especially been getting to me. I wonder how such intelligent influential people can sit and do nothing or worse do what they know to be wrong.

"Halls worn capturing the doubt" (i think)


hmm the days are long now that the cold has taken over and some of us feel like convincing random strangers that the world is overflowing and time is captured in moments no longer than the nail on your pinky finger but this is all subordinate to the ideal of space growing and that universe better keep expanding cuz our egos need room for prancing dancing cosmic whirl pools gathering in motion almost overflowing so chance to stop it with a notion that the great balloon can collapse, and when it does there may not be a relapse

fuckin around u know, i dont know what to tell ya, the weekend is pretty empty. the democratic shit starts manana, and my older brother and several others are on he verge of collapsing. Sad all these people put in so much effort and gain really nothing. Still they say its better to try.

reinforce everything...

We as a floor said goodbye to several cats last semester and though i've seen some around the campus its hard to keep from mentioning the impact on our lives, simple stories in remembrance.

Half the Vacancy filled by three new cats. Cody maxine and john. All quite different, adds to the atmosphere. Nice to meet new cats and such.

Its good to be back, sleeping reading getting to know somebody and rockin out in the showers with a suitable audience few feet of concrete away.

the dr at health services pushes pills like i push candy. Told me to ease up on the caffeine. I crack one open as i write.
Its just nice to see the personalities.

My classes seem to be mon w f 9th grade civics with emphasis on newspaper coverage of politics. repeated sociology by a teacher im not impressed with. then history i already know.

tuesday thursday i hav women studies the only male in a class of thirty plus. and i dropped first aid so i wouldnt have to wake up so early.

becky seems to be cool with some of her classes. happy about spanish and philosophy, good times, shes studying up on the religion and its fun to talk to her about it. hmm thinking i need better food and a better attitude on exercise.

thinking about my friends at their respective places, hoping they doin ok.

Hi im here with lots of time and no rhyme



no thoughts and a slight need for past remembrances upon this eve of the eve of a leaving.

my being goes out to you, all of you, but dont be shy to personalize.




I wonder how people comment on me to others in their lives. like past friends, i tell about everyone how could i not? and i expect u do too, so how do we describe eachother?

bowling
we went bowling, i fucked it up. mas cats and a time limit. Curtesy of morgana

Food
the chef at morgans work is obviously too cool for us. and hes even royalty.

photos
its a hard arrangement and the girl hooks me up but then i back down. and living conditions dont improve none, still surrounded by cameras. Natasha never answers her phone.

car
its cold out, why would anyone want to look at a car tonight?
I was supposed to take it to the car place, but slept in. Grants cousin or uncle or something Tom whos a pretty nice guy is coming over.

Some recent events show me: since the only reason to be pissed off in the first place is cuz ur concerned (meaning love) why act pissed? only strains the relationship more. Concern is a noble sentiment. show the person u love them.

yo yo yo.... it's becky. mike's showerin. i gotta say, i've had a lovely time meeting all of mike's friends over break. i kinda don't want to go back to school now cuz i had so much fun, but i kinda do, ya know? it's weird though, because i haven't even known you guys for long but i'm still sad that i'm leavin, probly because yous guys are so fuckin cool and friendly. anyway, i hope you have fun back at school and have a good semester and what not. i'll see yall tonight, we're going to applebees for mike's birthday! and remember, you are the ones who are the ballickers, ya crazy scalliwags. keep in touch, call us at morris, we'll be bored.