Monday, December 24, 2012

everything and nothing

Changes


Its been over a month I think, what is new?

I used to write on Christmas eve, that was back when I had grandparents to visit.  I haven't been writing much lately (as you may have noticed). I have been drawing a little, painting a little. Reading A LOT!  I have 2 books on Sufism, and a poetry book of collective works of Rumi, I have another poetry book I started but haven't finished and I am also in the middle of two books on South America (one a guide book, the other a history). I just picked up some good looking graphic novels and a book on Judaism. I just read Jared's copy of Anthem by Ayn Rand, which I enjoyed though I don't know that I believe in her philosophy, certainly given the circumstance in the book an anthem to ego makes sense, but this is a far more complicated world than the one she was writing about. I wanted to read it because this girl on OKCupid had it listed as a favorite, and I am trying to figure out whether she is someone to invest some energy into.  Its funny how once you start seeing one possibility more sprout up. I spend years at a time seeing nothing, and then see life everywhere.

I am trying to simplify my life right now so I can complicate it later. Maybe with a south america trip, maybe with a relationship, maybe with a crash a fall from grace.

I am not at all sure what any of this means, but I am fairly comfortable and happy and optimistic.
Opportunities are abundant, maybe I will take a Spanish class at MCTC or something.

I have no idea how invested I am in SoT right now, doesn't feel like much.
School is different, I think I am very open and very invested but I have no idea how to get what I want to happen.

I guess more when I have something to say.