Flowings of Your Everlasting Taffyman

i think i paid for too much internet time. Im waiting for alexis who is in an interview thing for being a tourism guide with fat tires in Berlin, Germany. A city and country i used to be afraid of and am now quite fond of, especially the cheap snacks, pretzels. overall i have been trying to spend more like im on vacation with my girl friend, which i am. I found out i will have some extra cash, but this worries me because now im thiking i should stay longer in europa, and i will need to budget again soon to stay on track (something i´ve become out of the habit of)
needless to say i have been having a wonderful time this week, visiting munich and berlin, train rides and snow filled walks holding hands and such.

but oddly i find myself retreating again, hesitation worries. will things change in 2 days?
the other day i asked her why in the case of relationships (my frim beliefs in life and love and such) werent enough.

with myself it is, when someone else is added, worries.

anywho, munich was pretty sweet and the germans very efficiently swept us up to berlin, where we are staying in a much more dive but cool hostel, run by a lazy student of musicology who loves bob dylan.
we ask "has europe changed? or have we?"

the days feel surreal, but soon reality, i think i will end up taking a bus or train down to marseille and seeing illy in 2 days. that is the plan.

today museos.
mabe breakfast in the morning.

peace and love -taff