sad the guinea pig died in labor yo
"Tristan we hardly knew thee."


"maybe she'll go on living in our hearts its just like you being dead and going on in our hearts."

"Every one knows anything goes we are the lotus kids you better take note of this for the story"
So where was I?

Well, that's a good question. I was somewhere I had been before but not enough times to remember the exact route to find whatever it was I was trying, but we were gonna get there. Me and my cousin or Anthony Keidis or whoever that was. He was following me which meant he had a certain amount of respect for me or something, and I remember a great feeling of honor for that. The area was littered with kids around late high/school college age. Ok for the Anthony/my cousin thing, Im not really sure who it was. At certain times I was sure it was my cousin Alex who has always been my most respected cousin, and it would seem to follow that it would be a mutual admiration thing within the event. As for the Anthony keidis thing, well I remember at a certain point that I was getting ready to grill him on several issues, and worrying if he would take offense to it. This is after who ever it was threw a bunch of garbage on the roof at a certain point at a building on campus(it must have been a campus) Anyway he seemed to do it not so much as wanting to cause harm (blocking up the drains) but more as in continuing some sort of tradition the students had, the custodian walked right by while he was doing it so it must have been no big deal.
Anyway from there we ran up a semi large green hill, and walked into a small building that seemed like some sort of concessions stand. It turned out I worked there and was late. Anthony or my cousin disappeared at this point and I was left with a bunch of small monkeys (humans) roaming around a very small and cramped kitchen style store. I got the impression that at least 2 of the guys were also working and at least 2 others were repeat customers, maybe friends. The rest just circulated in and out occasionally buying something. The place looked a lot like my dads kitchen only with more junk and shit in the way. (not that any of u have seen it) Anyway one of the guys very skinny blond about my height stuck his dirty fork in the cash register and it caught flame and we all just sort of sat and watched, me cuz i didn't know what i was doing there, the rest cuz they thought it was funny. Eventually people started leaving because nothing could be done and I blew the fire out.(im amazing) any way I struggled with the thought of turning him into the cops or calling security or what, I even had the phone in my hand and a list of numbers to call, but something told me this guy despite his stupidity was a friend so I simply locked up and contributed to the vandalism. I was late for class a repeated dream i often have, despite not being in school) Its always math class then a couple others 4 classes left for the day and chances are im only making it to 2 (despite the fact I skipped only 2 classes on purpose in all of high school) I sat down in a corner with a bucket of friend chicken going over excuses and such. I couldn't help but feel bad, my homework wasn't finished, I was late for class, I has greasy ass kfc all over my face. Eventually a teacher came up to me and asked me for some chicken, sat down and proceeded to eat, and everything seemed all good. Then I woke up with back pain and an hour to get to work. Hmm I be out soon.

hmm gabs we be here to welcome you back, probably no parties till pete gets back, which is like the weekend.
also dont get caught with alcohol at the border, it aint too coo.

hmm elizabeth's guinea pig may have started birthing tonight. Update as soon as i hear.

We went to a movie, some folks, i was trying to get more but like 5 people claimed "the school -out."

Zach is startin it up at NAPA.
Natasha hasnt heard back from her place.
did you get ur summer job lined up? (thats to everybody)

Aimee told me today she is befriending sid's bro art who is a great kid, even if he may have sold out.
I dont know i just figure hes nice and funny and charming, and apparently "he looks like jesus"
longer hair than me, sad no? (I mean for me)

i was sort of chatting it up with behtsee today, which is nice, shes a cool girl, all through out highschool i always thought it would be nice to be friends with her, but it never happened. circles and circles and shyness and abundance of the unknown and the fear of it.

We saw the recruit btw which uh isnt good, but its ok. (better then i would have predicted from the preview)

in the movie they ask this guy a psych question "would u rather be on a train, dance in the rain or feel no pain?" something like that anyway.
It would suck to feel no pain i been on trains before and it aint no thang but dancing in a summer rain when its all nice out has got to be one of the best things in the world. so theres my fuckin answer.
blag blag blag yak yak yak this coming to u from a cow who cant hop the barbed wire fence.

to quote popular song by popular band i enjoy very much, " the world i love, the tears i drop, to be part of the wave, cant stop, ever wonder if its all for you?"

gonna be one of those nights i want to cry but cant get there. feeling overwhelmed, (but its hidden, its covered) but in a somewhat nice way, ----even when its painful its a wonderful feeling to be wound up and overwhelmed with emotions, dont u forget it.

and gabs did katie ever write me an e mail, cuz i either didnt get it or she sent me porn. I do recall a letter that said "hi this is katie" and then it was porn. I didnt figure her for the type but whateva floats ----

"i just wrote a sermon, but i think its boring."

"A little less conversation, a little more action please
All this aggravation ain't satisfactioning me
A little more bite and a little less bark
A little less fight and a little more spark
Close your mouth and open up your heart and baby satisfy me
Satisfy me baby"

I went into work all early this morning, to find the problems the solutions and such. It all worked out and no one seemed the least bit concerned that i fucked up royally. They even thought it was funny that i was concerned enough to wake up this morning (my only day off this week) and show up to figure it out.

I really need to spell check these. Everyday i look over a few random posts and everything is all wrong. Matt I took cold medicine for a week and it didn't help at all, its all in our heads. I have been officially sick for like 2-3 weeks and unofficially since i got home from some other land.

Elizabeth of mauled by bears fame (she claims she will never post again, but i will keep trying) Is having babies, err the guinea pigs she is taking care of are having babies. We will keep u updated.

Enjoying these new cds mucho. Speaking french to myself in the car. They are spraying our lawn to make it chemically active, the lady that showed up to do it was looking at me like she either didn't believe i was who i am, was trying to figure out if she could take me in a fight, or really wanted to hop my bones. We will keep u updated. Maybe

Ever seem like life is just fuckin with ya? fir kicks maybe

Things i got to wonder about.

*Whats with my lil brother having 8 sticks of deoderant while i go a whole week reeking of BO cuz i ran out.

*Which of my family members threw elizabeth's bike down the hill.

*What the fuck i did wrong today at work that made the paper work for the till thing so fucked.

*What the fuck am I gonna do tonight?


So very monkeyish right now.

The kind of stuff my mom leaves carelessly around my house, and i tend to think is directed at me, because as james even admits, i tend to be a bit of a hypochondriac.

She had that printed out. Its pretty standard, as far as that stuff goes. Some of her other stuff is better but thats what was on top today. Im gonna go to work. Have fun.

check your news,
anyway u gotta love the fact that whenever our government is looking for something, say to link al Qaida and saddam, *poof* it just shows up. Hmm something to make france look bad, *poof* "we found it" weapons of mass destruction *poof* "why not over here?"

Im not saying none of this shit exists, i mean it all could, but if it doesnt, we will find it anyway, unless it serves a greater purpose to find it later, like in Syria.

Fun times. Charlton heston stepped down as pres to the NRA, a democrat looked really bad debating a republican on the gun issue this morning on cnn.

HMM Aimee took me and chris and her girls to a party thrown by a guy at jamba juice. So many heads that looked familiar, and yet i knew no one.

My drug needs more sugar, i gotta wake up, opening and closing and working alone at the mall today, pretty big responsibility considering its like my second week. Oh well wish me luck.

Gabs dont get SARS!! or whatever cuz thats some scary shit and u would probably live through it (it does not kill most) but ur boy mike aint got an immune system according to the note u left in my senior year book, so uh just dont get it.

do your rents still have you do chores when ur at home?
i went and get another job for my mom and now shes giving me work on top of the fact i work about everyday now.

im not mad i just think thats inconsiderate. Not that im not sayin im not alway inconsiderate to her, just one of us should be mature no?

sure everyone is entitled to their own views and such but i very much dislike the polls i see on political or even stupid issues, like aol's today about boycotting france.

this janis cd rocks the world i be working tonight home round 9:30ish think i can make the train?


i jumpon

Ever have those dreams where you and a pack of rag tag civilians are running from a giant army of renegades in some futuristic scenario, as in postapocalyptic, and there is just no where to go so you have to fight, or at least stop the army from finding your next hiding place. No? well your next hiding place is a circus pizza or something of the sort. (indoor kids carnival)

that is all i have to say for now. I think.

finally got some of those cds i been wanting,
the essential janis
the new big wu cd
chili peppers
and audioslave
also i downloaded the whole soul postition cd cuz it only has 6 songs and i already had 1 so no need to go there. Sadto screw the underground but maybe i can turn someone else onto buying a cd.

hello to all dont be shy say hi

how mike spends 3 mins so as not to be bored

and I'm not really that hungry
just bored
aint got no money,
to ride out to perkins
and sit amongst the friendlies
Yo escucho soul position
download pics for mass emissions
and its night time
makin me noctournal
yo escribo en mi journal

cause the last deck to fall
amongst the stars
create and relax
and watch the passing cars
corner of minni and lou
watch those who would pass through
through my town my sound my eternal hand pass through the city keep driving to get to foreign lands
u can tell u've gone to far
cuz it starts to smell
something fell
lets go back to the stars

I see distance and time as a giant piece of pie
and mines a bit of chocolate mousse
wipe the cream on the side
keep the swirls for the girls must impress and digest she likes a clean plate but u cant wait to take her back to the car.

oh have we gone too far? again
we can bend
spoons and shoelaces
across our brains and elbows
you get the coffee i'll say my hellos
fellas what you doin here?
always smoking section somewhere near the rear
i blame thee not the best view in the room
i like the freaks but cant handle the fumes
and that girl with the red hair caught both our eyes
cuz shes one of a kind
like the one u keep by your side.
my mouth is wide open and ready to be kicked
this shit is whack yo (oh yeah.... i like the "little less conversation remix" elvis song or whatever that is)

anonymous ~"the thespian gateway drug is coffee and methylphenidate. And the typical "mikey mike" friend (even though it should be a thespian, but it isnt) otherwise known as the skateboarding kid's gateway drug is alcohol and marijuana."

so i keep a lot of my e mails and look at them later or keep them until i respond.
4/5s of the e mail i have right now has in the subjects line "hey" "yo" or "dude" yall should tell me to shut my trap and get a new word.
"
I thought I was her daddy but she had five more."

also any of u rhymesayer's fans should hook me up a soul position cd next time u head to the store, that "oxford you really owe me" song is muy excellente. I pay u back and such, we kick it grand style.