Trust

 I kept having dreams all night about setting and maintaining boundaries. It was really odd. Nothing as dramatic as that one, but it felt like every single interaction was about setting boundaries and feeling like my trust in someone was in question.  

Made me wonder what today would bring.

So far nothing, except a lot of feelings at the doctors office. See most recent post. 

I dunno I am avoiding paperwork, but today feels pretty good. 

Went for a walk, got one more appointment. 

Been crying in my office about all the people who try so hard even if they relapse. Makes me think of too many loved ones who have or are struggling.

A friend and I have been talking about asphyxiation cognitive dissonance, and the politics of death… 

She wants to move to France. 

I feel it.