I am feeling quite selfish right now. Its not coming out in the younger version of me way of things, its more like a desire to sit still and do nothing. A younger me would say fuck you. This version of me, just wants you to be the way you are, and let me be the same.
Its a really bad time for selfishness, there are two hateful amendments coming up, and an election that could swing the country back the wrong direction, I've got family and friends who I am not supporting and who could probably use some contact.
I've got shit to do, some work related things I have dropped the ball on, some goals I will not reach without effort.
but I just want to sit in a warm spot and listen to music or be entertained by something. Be passive, be soothed.
There isn't anything wrong with me. I am not sick, not really sad or depressed, not necessarily pessimistic. Just want to be a lizard in the sun.
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