At christmas tonight my Dad brought up that I used to sleep walk when I was younger. He thought of a few humorous times I guess. James said he remembered me sleep walking numerous times when we lived in an apartment and shared a room. He said they weren't humorous, they were scary, and when he said it he looked scared. Dad asked him what, and maybe James was just covering for me in the moment, but it looked more like it was something he didn't want to share because it was painful or horrifying.
I remember having a lot of nightmares at that age. On a few occasions I remember my emotions or my imagination getting too far ahead of the rest of me, and not being able to calm down. Some of my more shameful stuff was probably beginning at that age, but I don't have a clue what he is referring to.
There are a lot of things in my life that I keep secret because I wish they hadn't happened... there are things right now that I wish weren't happening and worry me regularly, but it terrifies me to think I am not even aware of all of the things that are being kept secret.
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