Wednesday, March 04, 2026

Bizarre nightmare

 I just had this weird nightmare. 

In it, my wife or girlfriend was having sex with another man, it was actually supposed to be like a foursome thing, and I felt excluded when she switched up the expectations without communicating. I spent most of the dream wandering around our hotel, looking to see if she had even done a background check on the guys (I guess they were escorts?, whether they were clean, etc. I found evidence that they were kind of shady, and on top of feeling excluded, I felt betrayed, jealous, angry. 

At some point I may have left to get food or something, as my wife or girlfriend dead completely oblivious to my presence. 

At some point I asked them to leave, maybe by gunpoint. 


When my wife woke up, she asked where they were and I began to explain that I had felt really uncomfortable, left out, lied to etc… she became defensive and started to name that it was my fault, and that this was something she needed and I should be supporting her. I was getting furious. And eventually it became clear that we would break up. I felt like I saw both scenarios- of continuing to fight, and getting up to leave in the same moment. 

I woke up wanting to fight someone. 

I say this is bizarre because nothing like this is remotely similar to anything I’ve experience. Well, maybe the being turning on in fight when I’m trying to share my feelings of being wronged… but the entire scenario is completely foreign to me, and it felt so real. I don’t even have a girlfriend or wife. I have never wanted to share my partners… anyway. It makes me wonder if it was someone else’s story or dream… it be like that sometimes right?

Or if that is like the best my mind could do to represent feelings of betrayal that maybe I didn’t vocalize in the past?    I dunno.   Nothing I’ve watched or read or anything has anything to do with this. 

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