Marzo

 Steve’s 39th next week. 

We celebrated Odin’s 1st yesterday. 

Overall it was a productive weekend but I felt pretty down for much of it. 

Friday way the day trump and Vance attacked Zelensky in the oval…

Saturday I went to another mirac March, met a coworker there, she gave me cardboard and a sharpie… it’s better to have a sign than no sign. On Saturday morning I helped Dad and miles build a little basketball thing at Home Depot, dad and I walked lake Harriet. Then the protest, then later in the evening I got groceries and scrapbook supplies at Rosedale. Sunday went to church, made smoothie, got a few things done and then went to Ali’s for the birthday party. Played catch and what not with the littles. It’s fun being the uncle. After I got Chinese and then later struggled to sleep. 

I felt lonely most of the weekend (as I am now). Something about doing stuff you want to do, but without someone to come home to. I had a nightmare about some folks, and woke up Sunday feeling kind of in drama. The weekend full of activities still reminded me I was alone, not making progress towards my goals, and kind of just sad. 

Today I had only two clients, so I woke up and did some business stuff, and looked up some things and planned an art project, and watched some tarot videos. I felt more hopeful and productive. Tonight I made dinner, did all the dishes, did some sketches for the art project and finished a bit of the scrapbook. 

 I suspect tomorrow (I have 4 clients), I will do the same. Maybe I’ll even work from home - A little bit of business, a little bit of art or creative, a little bit of work. 

Life is ultimately pretty good. But again… not sure where it is going.  

Vic told me she would call tonight, maybe she’ll give me some ideas. 

On Thursday I might go to a meeting for organizing… on Saturday breakfast with my mom. On Sunday celebrating Steve. 

Wednesday-Friday are busier with work this week… but hopefully it will go ok. 

I have things I need to get done and check off… so that I can move forward. The office is technically mine starting mid May. I kind of also want to go on a vacation though… maybe the business starts in June? 

There is time… I don’t even know why I am bugging out so much… nothing really matters.