Flowings of Your Everlasting Taffyman

I'm trying to write this letter to this supposed best friend of mine who I feel totally abandoned and neglected by... and I have such a hard time because I feel like I can't even be openly angry, I can't defend myself and I hate that I've been put in this position...
Like why do I feel like the bad guy for wanting someone to show me the tiniest amount of dignity?
It like makes me hate myself on another level,

like not only am I not worth caring about, but I'm not worth standing up for, and I'm heartbroken and furious at both of us for believing it.