Flowings of Your Everlasting Taffyman

Funny how blogger wont paste lyrics here, I was gonna post the lyrics to the sunny day real estate song i had in my head. Its called "one" off the rising tide (their last cd)
None of you know them so its ok.
but i do find it funny that i get songs in my head while im dreaming.
no access to my music connection. I havent listened to that cd in a year probably. the other songs I have gotten in my head today are "life aint so shitty" and "lemonade" by blind melon. both wonderful songs but as i ealier remarked to krystin it sucks when you try to sing songs that are very random (like lyric or musically) because everyone thinks you just suck, and they dont know that the song is random and awesome.

Im freezing. I spent the whole night tossing and turning in my bed (it might be the caffeine) I might have cut down enough to have it affect me. (still drinking it)
but then I just took a 2-3 hour nap.


Talked to my girl Illy on the phone today, with an echo that bothered the hell out of me. She sounds good, we are gonna go see her in a few weeks.

I need to ask templemen for an extension. Im thinking I will just tell him I get it in when I do, and he can cut my grade down if he wants but it will probably be no later than a week in to february. As we leave on the 6th
Im also considering telling my history teacher (one late assignment already) that she should just keep me from getting lower than a C and everything else will be cool.
shaking shaking

horrible news confirmed last night. dreams havent stopped. ability to do anything confirmed at practically zero. People have to make their own choices in life. The problem is certain things dont seem like a choice. happiness vs seeming unhappiness, who chooses the latter?
I cant help. I can only wait for help to be chosen.

sometimes I cant tell if im shaking cuz im cold or cuz im scared.




while walking home last night krystin said something like "apparently it rained again" and I said something like "yeah I think God just takes a big bucket of water and splashes it on scotland while no one is looking" this is the way of things.

you take care of yourself or all start freaking out again