Las Ramblas
There are a few places on
earth, I've always thought were magical,
Where the spirit of the place seemed to overwhelm the physical space so much that the laws of science and cynicism weren't needed, and didn't have to apply.
Where the spirit of the place seemed to overwhelm the physical space so much that the laws of science and cynicism weren't needed, and didn't have to apply.
The adventure through the
streets was so real, that you could feel the demons and the angels resting on
your shoulders, clawing and soothing - as they pointed out the choices,
undermined the patterns, animated the very stones, and nurtured your path
forward- so that though not fated, felt perfectly
predestined, as if the universe had prepared (all this time) to greet you.
The muses meet you there,
And until you feel them latch on and compel you to be- you don't recognize how perfectly meaningless reality had once seemed.
And until you feel them latch on and compel you to be- you don't recognize how perfectly meaningless reality had once seemed.
And as you inhale the vapors
rising from the street, your corneas flex just right in the midday sun,
revealing every color in existence, and the perfectly sculpted comes to life,
smiling just right -she waves you forward, and another plays the rhythm of your
heartsong echoing off the old stone walls, and suddenly you are crying,
suddenly beaming because you can't help but choose hope, can't recognize
anything but the beauty of humanity and of creation.
-that's what it means to wish a street would never end.
-that's what it means to wish a street would never end.
Between the Charlottesville
thing, the terrorist attack in Barcelona, and a whole bunch of people's
personal issues... it’s been a tough week. I've gotten to check in with lots of
good people, that’s been great. But today I was sort of overwhelmed by
the idea that this place I've always considered magical was the site of a
tragedy. At noon while I was eating lunch with my brother they had it on the
news, blood and broken bodies all over the street. It just felt like the
perfect example of what so many things have felt like lately... that despite
all the potential for good in the world, we have chosen the opposite. The good
things are tarnished, we are going backward, the magic is gone.
It’s hard to understand, you
just can’t wrap your head around it, and it is easy to point the finger at one
person (Trump for instance), but as a society we’ve chosen this. People talk
about the weather or the stars aligning in the wrong way, it’s comforting to
think that maybe this is all out of our hands, this is a context we can’t push
back against, it is the way things are… but I don’t believe that. This is what
happens when good people don’t plan ahead. Yesterday I had a migraine. I woke
up too late, had the fan on high, wasn’t taking care of myself as best I could –but
at a certain point in the evening as the storm/tornado built, I just couldn’t
handle anything. I went home and hid under the sheet and hoped the meds would
kick in. This is what we are all doing now…
I’m sort of scared to jump
in, it feels like seeing the tsunami approaching and heading for it rather than
away.
I haven’t been able to write
or edit the last few days… just can’t make progress on the section where the
world falls apart. Its too cheesy, too dramatic... it doesn't feel at all like what is actually happening.
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