Feeling stupid

I just completely forgot about my friends child's 1st birthday... big deal right?
But it really is... not for the child, its not truly about them... its about recognizing the mother... don't you think?
Making sure they know you care about them, showing you appreciate the effort they have put in, recognizing their love and devotion, acknowledging all those seconds of loneliness, of mixed emotions, of fear...
I could brush over it like its nothing... but jesus, I can't even imagine...
maybe its easier for me not to. Easier to not acknowledge their sacrifices, and the truly blessed reasons why they would choose to make them.
A one year celebration, to say so many things impossible to understand...

Now I feel bad for posting this.