Flowings of Your Everlasting Taffyman

I suppose mel gibson and the pants is a band you have to really be feeling to get in to... but do you ever have a cd that u dont get in to right away and then later you listen to a few songs and wonder why u havent been listening to it non stop?
w/guitar


um dark dark dark was awesome... Nona has such a beautiful voice and its just so wonderful to see her perform, especially so confidently... I know i have always felt that way, it was really weird, i was getting so nastalgic when she was here... remembering all these things that really meant a lot to me in the past... and wondering if she ever thinks about that stuff... I guess i felt a little disappointed she didnt want to talk or anything... i mean i know she was busy... but its weird to know someone for so long, to share important stuff with and then they come in to town as a total star and dont have time to be friends.... im not blaming her or anything like i wasnt really expecting anything from her, im saying it was disappointing to see someone you love and not be able to express it....


still the music was beautiful, im so glad she has learned to be confident in herself... and it makes me wonder if this lifestyle, and these friends she surrounds herself with are actually really good for her, despite the lack of security and perhaps "normality" or whatever...

some of us were talking about fashion when best friends forever came, and certainly annika and nona and their friends are fashionable... but it seems so odd to me... i mean i will rock random shit, but most of it is for function's sake... or im making a think out of it... or its from another country and reminds me of something better... maybe their fashion is that way for them... some found objects, some attached meaning... but seemingly random to everyone else...
oh well. am i disapproving? i dunno... i guess they dress the way i draw people... but i just dont rock that style, cuz it does seem a little pretentious to me... i mean after it loses the jest, and just becomes fashion.... still i am so lost without a freak flag.... dying with short hair... ahhhh
i realized i actually do feel more comfy with long hair, or at least semi long... and i mean that in the way that like women who have short hair sometimes struggle with feeling like they arent feminine, or feel less confident or whatever... like i feel odd... so i should stop judging.

the one thing with Nona is, that i wish i had copies of all her stuff... she is creating some absolutely beautiful stuff and it needs to be recorded... kept.. but i dont have copies and it saddens me because i feel like its being lost, and of course all these people around the country have copies... but i need them to be secure with me or something...

i got a lot on tape... throw that up on youtube later

spiderman 3 and a kegger tonight?

my poetry portfolio is due last friday... so tomorrow morning...

anyway.... i had a wonderful time so far this weekend, mainly hanging with kristi and emily and erin... and they seem to be comfy with my awkwardness for now... so thats nice of them.