Flowings of Your Everlasting Taffyman

Wow is shit overwhelming right now... when i feel like this i write myself notes sometimes to convince myself its ok.... here goes.

John Frusciante has some depressing cds, one of the most depressing and still challenging in a hopeful way is The Will To Death
For a cd that talks about death on almost every track, and or a fall from grace, or feeling in a hole or whatever.... song names like "A Doubt" "time runs out" "loss" "Unchanging" "a loop" "wishing" "far away" "The days have turned" and "the will to death" ...a cd that often glorifies death as a release, as transcendence and yet still.... it starts with a song i have quoted on an away message "A Doubt" which ends with the lines "Lean in to walk, there's nothing missing from life." which is something i like to try to remind myself and others of...

In fact the whole cd talks about the processes that are so important to deal with, to think about, to feel and express. I am sad, I am lonely, I am stressed, hurt, betrayed, depressed, i am an asshole etc...

"The days have turned" -"when i feel ive got problems, how wrong I am"
in "A loop" he sings and later yells 16 times "I cant wait for life"
"wishing" ends with the words "now is the one time anything happens here"
"an exercise" "hey doubt, come on around any time, anyhow mistakes are what lead you through life, down and out's only if you think up and in's right.....and the only important moments, are the inbetween times, and being confused is an exercise"

"A doubt" "we all choose to live life, we confuse how with why."
and at the very end of the song he yells "and dont ever set a limit!"

so Mikey mike...
"Lean in to walk" - keep going, put yourself in to it. "Theres nothing missing from life." -its supposed to be this way, this hard, and why? because "you're (only) perfect (if) you fit snuggly right in the lie" ~"an exercise"

things are not supposed to be perfect, perfection is a lie, happiness is not always being happy, but knowing that when you are down it isnt forever, that there is some point to it. that life is about living and learning. live and learn!