Flowings of Your Everlasting Taffyman

I feel i showed post and dont have much to say, im actually avoiding homework, the homework i have been looking forward to the fun/easy homework. Counseling tomorrow, its weird because im seeing a psychoanalyst-ic dude, and im as curious about the process and what we will come up with (what i will hide, share) as i am concerned about what is going on in my life now. So I worry/wonder what i will talk about when i get there, do i say everything is fine so that he can start analyzing my past? or concentrate and delay so he has a better understanding of what im going through now?
What sorts of interesting things will i learn about myself, will he judge? will i be too ashamed to say anything in the first place? will it not come up because i dont direct it in that direction and he doesnt know to look?

This seems to be a question i have with several things in life, how much honesty is too much? is it safe? do i tell people right away or wait till they like me.



i just redislocated my big toe on my right foot, this happens anytime i put too much pressure on it, and it hurts but i dont know how to fix it, so i walk on it till it feels comfortable again.

one of the +'s so far of living up here all alone is that i have been listening to more music than usual, which is great i forgot how much i enjoy so much of it.
one of the -'s is that i often wonder what is going on in the lounge downstairs, a great conversation? a movie? a great tv show? someone who needs to talk? people doing homework? playing games?
what am i missing? and will they come get me? probably not but i might be lucky enough to get an IM before they run off to their fun.

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I painted for like 4 hours today, and by painted i mean i painted or talked to people while i thought about painting, it is really coming along, but still i am out of ideas, i ust make it up and much of it will be filler now since im at that point of the picture
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two very different IM convos with erica and mike the rock -mucho fun.


peace and love yall