its a weird night

I should have gone out I did and returned early solo driving states and cities of madness passing by, "ya got lots of possibilities!" the thought that echoes through my head and to convince you even more representations of monetary units fly across kitchen tables several feet away. Morning promises the gray "did ye not know that son?" Figs and dates wrapped up in would be leather pouches and sold for pennies "you can get anything in this country for like a dollar man, its amazing." Sometimes i want to cry and dont know why.
In conclusion you balance the budget like so.
Split
slit and slash
pull the curtains back,
ask for the time of day then just hit play

and the world just keeps spinning...

"I must have read a thousand faces"

weird to talk to a grandmother about her recently deceased daughter and troubled grandchildren.

I have to go to work.

I just returned from probably what has easily been one of the best road trips ever. I had a wonderful time, despite constantly feeling weird and gross, but all of that is for later, then i got home and found out i got into morris, and thats cool, then i checked my mail and found out around the time i was driving through michigan a friend of mines mom went to the hospital, and around the time pete was driving through wisconsin she died.

Its weird how no words convey anything when faced with that.
We were reduced to simple "hello and bye" and i dont know what to do, i been thinking bout this girl all week and even praying for her, which is something i rarely do on a individual basis, but now what?

I had like the fourth friend this month tell me yesterday i leave town too much, and on that note Were goin to montreal!

road trips galore. So if ur trying to reach me or pete or amy a in the next few days u might want to try by means of contacting gabs. or petes cell phone which may still be working.

Also um "your balls are showing" ~ ace ventura 2

Ok well i guess thats it no great works of genious coming out of this mind today, ryan have a nice flight. Everyone else take care of yourself and someone else. peace and love from the T to the A to the double F y? cuz we flow like rivers, currents, streams of time, motionless motion until the cup overflows and spills the ills that have befallen the world, remember in "liberation," no need for your flag to unfurl. ---- thanks to the brit parliament for that one good looking out.

For everyone's info my hard lemonade tastes like lemonade with alcohol in it. Go figure eh?
peace and love from sober cab mike and steve my bald headed brother.

"March 9 – A employee of Half-Price Books, 5017 Excelsior Blvd., was taking unsold material out to the dumpster behind the building when he saw a male in his mid-20s rummaging around inside. When the employee told the man to get out of the dumpster the man jumped out, punched the employee in the face and drove off. " ~ from the sun

commentary by Tim (used without permission, sorry)

Mike,
I am positive that March 9 was the day I was in their dumpster and the guy
told me I could not be there. We talked for a while about why, I walked
away, waited until he left, grabbed my last box of books, and left. Was
that paragraph in the Sun? I hope it is made up, cause dumpsters divers are
being given a bad name, and cause no one (with a few exceptions) deserves a
punch in the face : )
Peace (as people think only of themselves),
Tim

Check out my band's website at:
www.mp3.com/youandthesound

"Approximately 6,000 people [actually approximately 3,000] perished in the
September 11th attacks. Our nation reels from that despicable brutality. But
those who died from the attacks on that tragic day were not alone. On
September 11th, 35,000 children worldwide died of hunger. A similar number
of children died on September 12th, and again on the 13th, and on every
single day since then. Meanwhile, we in the U.S. feed 80% of our grain
harvest to livestock so that a people whose cholesterol levels are too high
can have cheap meat."
- John Robbins


Thats tim's signiture
anyway i found this all amusing so why not show u what the world has come to. Also it shows the extreme bias of the media. Word up yo

"Wide pain in the blue white break up
All paths divide
Life has a way of opening up" ~Jf

A few years ago i went a trip with several friends and several soon to be friends and it was a jolly good time, though i was very sad the whole time. This is where you hear stories of long island ice teas and mrs lane being insane but in a pleasant way.
The intoxication caused by lemoncello "its a cultural thing"

Why be sad amongst so much fun, so much joy, so much history culture and beauty?
I had a crush. or rather 5 yep and thats that story, cuz u know me. Why do I say this, cuz im listening to that cd, oh memories.

"round 2, Fight!"
Last night I had a dream or rather several but I only remember one real well.

"We were somewhere around Barstow, on the edge of the desert, when the drugs began to take hold."

but anyway my family and I (mi madres side no tengo un papa en el dream)
the four of us traveling through southern Iraq to get to god knows where but it was just a pass through country on a grander road trip, and yes we knew the inherent danger in our mission but Iraq was too beautiful to miss so we drove up to the border guard station (which looked like a truck stop only with a gate to let people in) where I realized i had forgotten my passport, (the plot thickens) i told my mom and she seemed unconcerned. Im not quite sure if we were using american passports or not. Anyway they let us through and we were driving along in our land rover and there was war and destruction all over but it wasnt concerning us we were more interested in the good views of the river valleys (where western civilization started, which i as a nerd, even in my dreams had to point out) but anyway then we got stopped by a tank or something and they were mean and i woke up.

I have to say the video of johnny cash doing "hurt" (NIN) is pretty fuckin sweet up there in my top videos

u should check it out

I been real shite at posting lately

not much to say i guess, Godspeed you black emperor at first ave was pretty sweet, thanks to tim and kristen for that, though i think yall would agree it was way too crowded.

and um dont watch fox news cuz they suck
and um if u pray, pray for the peoples of the world tonight cuz we need it. peace and love Taff

cats at petes on friday. one night only sounds like before we exit for montreal

rockin the tiny little socks that barely cover ur feet
"and it feels like summer everyday im with you" ~Noah

i been fucking with shit randomly so if shit is scrwy its my fault

I just wrote this big political rant hating on our current state but uh u all know how i feel.
Sorry I havent posted in a while, college shit, trips, work, crazy uplift mofo party plan
u know shit.

I had a sweet time in Boulder chillin with my homie, seeing joey and stopping by grinnell is always a treat
nova is kicken it workin her ass off in mexico right now. Now im back and i feel like a slug, cuz i aint done shit and i apparently dont have to work until i get back from montreal so watching that money. Anyone do either peace events yesterday?

the original poem from petes library

The Next Chapter

Flinging off responses so candidly
Emotions like blood spill from the flood
A retrospective, introspective
search seek and deny
My flights aren’t good enough, so why am I?
I speak upon the journey of two fortnights past
and I pass it away
Pass over it in conversation.
They tell me to write about it, as if it were the pivotal moment in this man’s life,
but for me just a flight,
more comfy than papers, math books and college applications, examinations of who I am.
I’ll take them on my own time, in foreign lands, thank you.
Soul Searching
My natural rhythm
Enlightenment my natural drive.
Rejection my fear,

Decades making this transition
This trip, my last attempt at an intermission
Before life in their eyes,
becomes mine.

Ryan's blog on the side.

I'm disheartened by the amount of comments he gets. Oh well I feel like a poodle in need of a bath. Dont ask me why.

that post from grinnell wasnt about a person by the way. I just felt like i was on drugs which is always a fun time to write.
More later this post is about the link...

Kristen i will probabaly not be back by friday so if ur goin to pleasure pause have fun and um also brendan is invited to tims right cuz he will probably be back in town and i may be giving him a ride home.

Also i am at petes place in boulder and its pretty pete style as in comfy dirty fun yeah were already into the gossip and everythings like old times. This applicaton to college thing is really getting on my nerves i dont know why. Last night i felt awkward all night i wonder why? novas mad cool.

4 books referred to in an open argument (its just what came to mind)

Common states of interest, possibly just a formality, no prerequisites in my book to have a good time, unless you perpetrate that most unholy crime.
Nova says I should look at my website for inspiration, funny to look at past adventures when having one. We flew in formation today, the two of them and I quick bonds made and lost on a trip across time. I dream of staying up all night having wonderful chats tonight. Wouldn't even have to be with her or her or her maybe you though, what you up to? Must you work so hard and communicate so awfully, much like myself I must regretfully add. Two different styles and we both come to the same sad outcome. Wouldn't it be wonderful though, lets start off with that same old line truth be told I never met you before tonight but in my dreams we can last much longer though I'm lost and gone forever en la manana. And my stomach hurts but it feels good to have this sort of energy, this calm nervousness of possibility. You inspire me you world you lovely energy you excitement and adventure you chats on war and politics and sex and secrets revealed. I've never sat at a table with so many lesbians, one or two but oh you. So did you wake up this morning and say "lets inspire him" or do u do it naturally? Are you so beautiful? Oh I think you are right now I feel it. I could never come here again and feel so____right. Tonight will end oh why you? Would you leave us so un- fed? why must you always push me away you? I'm sick of spiting you, inviting you back, I wish we were all together, me you and you and her and him but not her unless oh we must, her too, but you must inspire her or she will bring us all down.

You pimp you pusher, you've got me hooked. I cant believe you could be so openly cruel. Don't slap, you, you selfish and insecure oh why do i become so disgruntled with out you?

There should be more but i got distracted so no more for you

In other news, due to budget cuts transcripts now cost $5 instead of the already pricey $1, and they wont give ya any of the info you need when u go in to get info. Gotta love high school kristen and tim if i dont get into morris im sorry maybe spring, next time i will be better prepared, but my application will be holy. oh yeah i got to use holy. also kristen if u read this and happen to go to school this week and see jeremy maybe u can ask him about recomendations cuz i couldnt find the brother today. Also i have less cash in my account then i thought previously. Maybe it was the tires, and now i get to spend even more on gas. Looks like a budget week for me. Well adios sorry for the compaints peace and love Taff

Going to Boulder CO with a stop in grinnell maybe even des moines. Im goin it alone cuz a couple of my friends dropped out last min but this is the time, so i gots to go yo. Hopefully everything will be fine and the worst that will happen is i get a little bored on the road, but if not yall got my love spread it around as much as you can. Shit works out for the best. Peace and love Yo

I took my little brother down in a quick brotherly fight today. (I suppose this "brotherly fight" thing is something I totally take for granted having 2 tougher than I brothers. but that can be a different post)

No real reason why I did it, he was talking shit to me and my older brother which he usually does, but all of a sudden it was time, and so I did. Now I have never lost a fight to Steve but we also haven't fought in years and he has grown a good amount. So although I usually claim I can still take him down, I was actually quite surprised. As im sure all of you are if you have ever seen the two of us.

Now im not bragging here I wanted to say this for the peculiar pride adjustments I saw afterwards. Also I'd like to state that Steve was at a slight handicap since he worked out really hard last night and was pretty sore today, I knew this going into the fight and took full advantage of it. Also my fighting style tends to be (if I have one) just keep the guy unable to hurt you, which means the kind of holds and such that keep a person disabled. So not like we were hurting each other or anything. Also he gave up much quicker than I thought he would and if he would have continued for say another 5 mins I would have been out of whatever strength I have.

And now for the pride__ immediately after the fight (which took place in front of several family members, Steve's favorite shit talking time) I could tell his pride was a hurtin. He didn't want help getting up from anyone, and he didn't even want to really get a ride home (to my moms house) from me, but I wasn't like rubbing it in or anything so he did come with me, and then he didn't talk. Not that we always talk or anything but he will usually say something, but not a word this time. Now this may not be because of the little fight we had, but it seemed kind of weird.
And now me, now I was trying to fight it off, but I don't know if that worked a whole lot cuz I really don't think of myself as a physical person and I wasn't really expecting to win that fight, so the fact that I did kind of made me feel big I guess. I think its really weird how things like that happen. My brothers have been asking about climbing Mount Kilimanjaro when they go to Tanzania in the early summer. My Mom and I don't think its a good idea, having been there and seen it and such, but they are both very eager and the fact that my Mom and I tell them no just makes them want to do it more. I have been trying to reason with them cuz basically I know they could do it but I don't think they should at least on this trip. They are staking their manhood on it I believe I think that's pretty stupid, but after having just beaten Steve in a lil fight, I guess a guys got to do what he's got to do.

"i want you near, the way i am" ~ jf

im a junkie also i forgot the one song kristen asked me for on the cd i was supposed to make her like 2 yrs ago or something.