Flowings of Your Everlasting Taffyman

why is there no one up at 3:05 to entertain me?
i mean its one thing when im trying to do homework, its another when im avoiding it. come on people? i blame conservatives. its hot in my room. Mel woke me with a smoothie, that gave me a stomach ache... but it was so good.
krystin is coming friday, we will hopefully do something fun... i might have to wash some sheets and blankets and offer her a real bed.
its actually a really good thing this weekend though mel and josh might be gone, its probably the last weekend that any of us will have any free time. im evemn thinking bout going to a party on monday. need to call schools tomorrow... i was checking out the shit for augsburg and ran in to some problems
-like
do they even have a licensure only program during the week? how long does the weekend one take? whens the application due? where is the application? how much is it?

metro state and river falls never even sent me the info.
I got a gift in the mail from becky and her mom, a really expensive gift, and im sort of reluctant to accept it, or rather i accept it but i assume they meant it for someone else, and im cool with that, I just kind of want to know, and if they didnt... well thats just absurd.

for future reference this is what last semester of senior year looked like.

monday (wed is the same for school work, fri is just islam)
reading 1-2 chapters writing a poem, printing 8 copies, 2 classes, islam is pretty much a lecture with nice pictures and a funny prof (whos not really trying to be funny) i joke with rachel and emily and sometimes meagan who sits next to me but doesnt seem to like me. alison and christina w are in there and they are nice peoples. poetry I sit next to mary, i watch as her and danny boil up with frustration at matt, I hear their comments under their breath (or in mary's case outloud) responding to vicki the teacher... we discuss poetry, we discuss things using terms i dont understand and dont care about. I usually feel quite reluctant about each new assignment but try to stay open minded. the class is fun, full of personality, we chat and have attitude, mary brings it out in me- she makes me feel more rebelious, i am not like that when she isnt there. I guess i naturally cater to underdogs, i forget she is so young, I love her poetry, tracy's too, I am even sometimes surprised by matt's he writes without caring trying to sneak things in, but occasionally stumbles on something really nice. people seem to like my bullshit poetry, the stuff i actually care about no one gets, but they admire the naturalness of the rhyme and rhythm. i like to play around with words, it gives them a kick. i add a lot of jokes in to poems. these are not real poems they are just bullshit but they are fun none the less and they get me a grade and they get me some practice, but i wouldnt ever write about butterflies or seasons or weather or whatever... and i usually find someway around it.... like winter is about falling on your face, spring poems are about the weirdness of anticipation.. my real poems people dont get right away, suit, isaac, polishing the silver... these are too abstract, and they describe abstract concepts and feelings.. so im ok with it.

we go out almost every monday night around 6:00 me and tom and alicia are always there, pizza ranch or china, sometimes old no fun (old number one)
we talk about many a sordid thing.


monday night i panic about all the reading i have for tuesday, modern europe is usually 20-30 pages (light reading, nice) interesting topics we discuss in class. American indians is heavy reading 50-100 pages usually from a couple different books, the reading is dry but occasionally interesting, we are supposed to post comments on a website, we never do. I skip all my soc theory reading, always

modern europe is at 10:00 on tuesdays and thursdays and they go like this,
wake up without enough sleep. stumble in to class, usually late for which im not sure anyone cares, but i sit on the other side of the room so its a little awkward. its a big room, but only about 20 students. I sit next to laurel, for some reason she is usually my favorite person to sit next to in a class... that i can think of anyway... we tend to joke about something when we have the energy... but both of us are usually either really tired, or wired but not on track.... the prof lectures and they are usually really good lectures, just the right amount of info, not a lot extra, the class takes notes though there are no tests. we take them cuz we enjoy the info, it helps us discuss. She likes to incorporate music and pictures which is nice, some weeks we have movies, i have only been to one. the light reading is usually complimented with some in class reading, or a discussion assigment, for which im usually paired up with laurel... we work through things easily, i dont think we ever have really disagreed, usually i think we find ways to compliment eachother's info. when the discussion is opened up to the class level we both talk. the prof likes us. She doesnt seem to like the football boys in the other corner, she always writes off their answers.... which I joke about with one of them in the next class. There are some smart people in the modern europe class and usually things are covered fairly well.. im not sure everyone is getting what i get out of the class... but partially that is because i have never been a modern history person.-so im getting a good refresher.... the stories and patterns fall neatly in to place. I learn, but am not challenged, but thats ok at 10 in the morning when im taking 20 credits and have to sit through 2 more 1 h 40 m classes that day.
we gets a 20 minute break... i usually do nothing during this 20 minutes and its frustrating.
Am indians usually starts late. the prof is a good man, you can tell, but he is long winded sometimes -the way i am when im tired, or passionate, only when im tired i trail off and he keeps going strong, until he has no idea what he is talking about, but sounds legit saying it all. He often tries to convince us of points we could care less about, some historian's argument we have never heard and wouldnt care to rebuff. he is often frustrated that we have not commented. I dont think many people do the reading... we break in to discussions during class, I am with josh (the football player from the last class, another guy who rarely shows and 2 girls, one who somtimes speaks, and another who rarely does) me and josh tend to do some of the reading... only because we know we will be responsible for responding...
I have noticed more and more, that i will almost always talk if the prof asks a question and no one wants to answer... unless i am seriously unaware of the topic... which sometimes happens in this class.. its hard to keep up with the reading. or i am lazy... probably both. but i talk alot so the prof doesnt know, he generally thinks i have good points... all my profs do. some even look to me when things arent going well (the third class is the biggest example of this)
at 2 i have soc theory with a third prof... he is always late as well, but the class is small and none of us care about the subject, we spend a lot of time goofing off and joking amongst ourselves, we also tell the prof to change all the dates of assignments and he does.
the class is mostly lecture (note taking off a screen, with some commentary inbetween) i ask clarifying questions often because he writes the way he speaks, (with an accent) and though i understand what he is saying, i like to see what he really means, which is usually much more in depth than the bullet points be puts on the screen... we give example after example back and forth until we come to some conclusion... the class expects this from me. they dont seem to care, and the prof expects me to fill in gaps in discussion.
it virtually guarantees me an A.

i have no set routines on other nights except on thursdays i go to WRC meetings or discussions. which have become one of my favorite outlets to see people. I really like all the people who show up, and the jokes, and the discussions are usually really fun.
the wrc is losing membership and its really sad. it needs like 10 people who are dedicated... i could write a whole new post on an event i went to today, but the summary would be -the women studies department has no coordination, and they expect students to fill in the gaps, the women studies majors have no leadership and ask for help, but get it only on individual levels, the wrc is a part of this but majors dont come to meetings, and the faculty dont know what is going on with it. there are like 2 other organizations involved but once again loosely coordinated, so it ends up with no one passionate, and no one organized... this for the major/movement that is supposed to inspire at least half the population of the world.

in the next month i have: 2-3 tests, 1 take home final, 3 research papers (sinan the architect, soc theory, and punk music-specifically a clash song *short*) I have 2 response papers to books, 1 response to a movie, 1 discussion section to lead online, 1 portfolio, and all the normal homework to do...events and meetings to attend, plus i have to fill out applications to jobs and schools, and think about where to live.
i graduate in 32 days. its gonna be a fun month, but oh well i have done this shit before.

how bout a little warhead in your abdomen.