A John Kerry you could have voted for.

from my mom

I'm a little confused. Let me see if I have this straight.....

If you grow up in Hawaii, raised by your grandparents, you're 'exotic, different.'
Grow up in Alaska eating mooseburgers, a quintessential American story.

If your name is Barack you're a radical, unpatriotic Muslim.
If you name your kids Willow, Trig and Track, you're a maverick.

Graduate from Harvard law School and you are unstable.
Attend 5 different small colleges before graduating, you're well-grounded.

If you spend 3 years as a brilliant community organizer, become the first black President of the Harvard Law Review, create a voter registration drive that registers 150,000 new voters, spend 12 years as a Constitutional Law professor, spend 8 years as a State Senator representing a district with over 750,000 people, become chairman of the state Senate's Health and Human Services committee, spend 4 years in the United States Senate representing a state of 13 million people while sponsoring 131 bills and serving on the Foreign Affairs, Environment and Public Works and Veteran's Affairs committees, you don't have any real leadership experience.

If your total resume is: local weather girl, 4 years on the city council and 6 years as the mayor of a town with less than 7,000 people, 20 months as the governor of a state with only 650,000 people, then you're qualified to become the country's second highest ranking executive.

If you have been married to the same woman for 19 years while raising 2 beautiful daughters, all within Protestant churches, you're not a real Christian.

If you cheated on your first wife with a rich heiress, and left your disfigured wife and married the heiress the next month, you're a Christian.

If you teach responsible, age appropriate sex education, including the proper use of birth control, you are eroding the fiber of society.

If, while governor, you staunchly advocate abstinence only, with no other option in sex education in your state's school system while your unwed teen daughter ends up pregnant, you're very responsible.

If your wife is a Harvard graduate lawyer who gave up a position in a prestigious law firm to work for the betterment of her inner city community, then gave that up to raise a family, your family's values don't represent America's.

If your husband is nicknamed 'First Dude', with at least one DWI conviction and no college education, who didn't register to vote until age 25 and once was a member of a group that advocated the secession of Alaska from the USA, your family is extremely admirable.

OK, it’s much clearer now.

No offense to the baby makers out there.
and I know just last week I was complaining about how I am not doing my duty to make enough babies... but uh.... it freaks me out how many baby pictures are on facebook now. What happened to drunken debauchery? oh, it lead to babies.

Nikki was suggested as a possible friend. I think we were facebook friends once. I think she dropped me after I asked her if we could be friends again. I'm sort of not good at that whole thing.
Anyway, like the casual stalker that I am, I looked up her name in a google search. I know she lives in another state now, but there is a woman with the same name around the same age who lives in mn and who now has a baby. This could be her.... but I don't think it is. It did scare me for a second though.

Odd how other people getting pregnant and having babies makes me nervous.

I didn't feel good today. It made work suck. Not only was I crabby but everyone else was too. We were all ready to snap. I snapped a few times... but no one even bothered listening to me. So basically I can't enforce anything.

Students take advantage of me.

When I think about it, I don't really believe in some of the rules I'm enforcing so it makes it hard to do things. I mean, I go on youtube why shouldnt the students? but then they do it while we are trying to learn.

right right

A fortune from a fortune cookie told me on friday to change up my routine this weekend. I am not sure I did that necessarily, but yesterday around 6, I was about to watch another movie and instead chose to go to an open mic night at a coffee shop near my work.
This place is new, so it was a low key event. A number of musicians played. They were alright. I was working on a piece for the first hour so, I didn't pay too much attention.
After about an hour and a half, I decided to sign up on the list.
I performed 4 poems
Open Mics (the one I wrote there)
Music poem (in honor of all the musicians)
Little Town on a Hill (because I like the words)
Jihad (Cuz I wanted to do something political)

The crowd was very nice to me, and I felt accomplished.
I have made this point before but it shocks me every time

Why is it that I can stand in front of a class without feeling so nervous but cant stand in front of an audience without shaking?
I told them at one point that I was wearing two pairs of pants so they couldn't see (I'd been wearing them all day, it just happened to work out).

Anyway, they were super nice to me and after me some other younger artists played and they were awesome!! and I totally had a wonderful time.

Then me and morgan went to his work for dinner... and I am still stuffed.

Some artists are awesome. I wish I was this cool.

a friend of mine has had a picture i took of her on her facebook profile for a long time... I really love the picture, but it makes me happy that she does too.

Gabi sent me a message today. I feel a lot better about that. I still miss her.

Seeing Illy the other day reminded me how much I miss her too.

I'm weird right now. Hard to please.

I'm glad you all like fortune cookies.

too much hype, learn to relax boy

on politics

On the Debate
Honestly, they both did well representing their sides. McCain sounded like Reagan. Obama sounded like Obama. I personally think Reagan was a fucking idiot, so Mccain doesnt exactly sound good to me when he talks that way, but I understand that others like him like that.

On the Bailout
700 billion could buy up all the debt all the people are in and keep hundreds of thousands in their homes. Instead we are gonna bail out a bunch of rich bastards who screwed all of us already. We do so because we assume that they will help out our economy in the future ( a gamble) that will cost each of us a minimum of 2000 dollars extra in taxes (per year I believe). Or we could give the money to the people, let them pay off their debts and spend freely for a few months so that they could boost the economy. This would in turn boost the economy out of the slump (in a nice world) but at the very least the little people would be spending their own money instead of giving it to rich people. We could also buy health care for everyone. Or fix all the schools, hospitals, roads, rail roads, internet etc, etc... maybe even buy up a billion or two of those wind turbines and solar panels (well at least a couple hundred million).

On Palin
Shes an idiot. Dump her.

On Obama/Biden
I have stated many times that in an ideal world I would vote third party, and once again if it is no contest in minnesota I will vote third party, but it seems more and more that the country is full of idiots and that i will be forced to vote for him. Its not that I don't like obama, hes alright, Its that I don't actually like democrats. Because they allow all this shit to happen. They wont slap the republicans for being assholes, and wont stand up to the american people and tell them what is right. They dont deserve my vote or my confidence. I vote for them because our system is screwed up, and when they fix things (even a little) I vote for someone better.

dreams

I miss them.

in one this morning, I was inside a snow globe that unbeknown to me was also a giant jaw breaker... there was some sort of narration explaining this portion of my life and in it they explained how eventually I figured out how to break/eat my way out. But the last scene of the dream still had me thinking I was alone in a snow globe.

I cant remember them all... they are fading... but there were some good ones.

Gabi was in one.
some students were in some.

Mike feels like he screwed something up today at work.

Also, he needs a vcr and the rain is not comforting today.


(I have to watch three movies for work) -pretty cool eh?

“Of course a social relation can’t be changed with a bomb, it takes more than dynamite to get folks to respond, of course tomorrow morning there for if all systems collapsed, we’d divide ourselves again in lines of gender, race and class. But tonight I don’t care if we were at the head of a million hearts, unless we ripped them from our chests and start throwing them at cars, cuz tonight it’s not enough to sympathize in our beds, they count everybody who doesn’t rise up as a win, lying in bed we dream of a thousand revolutionary plots, were fucking petrified to use the bit of power we’ve got, it’s not to say it’s not important to build and organize, but all talk and no act is just is just reaction in disguise. So some of us are gonna wait another thousand years, for the world to lose their crutches and to swallow their fears, because complacency is guilt and response is overdue, Johnny the movement needs your heart but it needs your body too. “

I think this song is called bombs and bleeding hearts.

The next verse begins "In a little piece of each of us, inside is a cop, we try to fuck each other over just to rise to the top."

anyway, I like this song, even though I may not agree with it. Its sort of an extended version of the call "off of the sidewalks into the streets!"

ha!

I was gonna bike to work

but now I'm feeling rather lazy.

Lets see, do I have anything to say?

Yesterday I watched three movies. The love Guru (which I thought was funny), The Fall (which was beautiful), Young at Heart (which was awesome/inspiring).

We decided to throw a party. I only invited people who were in town, but others can come too.
-One of my roommates is moving out, its sort of a celebration of our time together.
-Our new roommate has a similar smoking habit to my other roommate. This might be bad.
-speaking of which my eyes are really dry... (cat allergies!)

"They are trying to build a prison, for you and me to live in."
Ever since getting and liking my current job, I have been super paranoid about outside forces deciding that I am unfit to work there (I.E. the cops busting me on some random charge and saying I can't influence the youth).

Trying to figure out Tupperware.

I should go brush my teeth. You should too, geez.

"I think I'm done gunning to get closer
to some imagined bliss
I gotta knuckle down
and just be ok with this."


List of people to call, I sit aqua blue toweled and bare chested, pjs and waiting for water pressure to return all glorified streaming out our shower.
Worried and wondering, tummy exaggerating, I got work tomorrow and a list to please.

what to say

camping was good.
I was odd, out of place, but no one noticed and more and more I'm realizing that my internal awkward meter is off, in the same way maybe my body image, and art meters are.
who knows.

lonely.

Life is very sweet to me.

I wish I could show you pictures, share and be proud. (legal issues)maybe if we put some up on the school website I can.

gonna go to lunch with morgan and shultz.
Unsure about plans for the rest of the weekend.
I guess, I am able to be stolen away at any time.

might as well have been a dream he thought

I don't even need the answers to the questions I pose
I find them in the prose you wrote in my dreams.

Each message not so clear and concise
but I dream through the night,

and then I think all day
to decode what you have said.

Is it any wonder I wake up depressed,
but in hearing from you, prefer my bed?

Alegria

I have been listening to this cd for 12 years. I am still amazed by it.
When I was in Hong Kong we kept seeing commercials for the new cd by Cirque Du Soleil, a group I hadn't really ever heard of. The commercial from what i remember didn't even show the gorgeous acrobatics, contortionists, street performers and dancers that their shows are known for, just the cover (different than the picture shown) and the music. At least that is what I remember. But I remember turning to my mom one day and saying we should buy this. So we did.
I don't think I have steadily cherished or used anything else I got during that trip in the same way.

At one point I had all the Cirque Du Soleil shows taped on VHS, I don't know what happened to that. If they weren't ridiculously expensive I would go see one. But I think the music of this cd has touched me in ways that the performance probably couldn't. Its just masterful. weird, eccentric, worldly, creepy, beautiful, emotional, deep, comical, driven, empowering, touching.

I have spent hours just listening with my eyes closed.

This acoustic remix of the title track is not on the cd, but though it is quite different from the dramatic production. It is also quite beautiful.
(video just plays the music)

speaking of bill

Response from the mayor of st paul

Dear Mike,

Thank you for contacting my office with concerns about public safety and first amendment rights with respect to the recent Republican National Convention in Saint Paul. I appreciate the opportunity to share our approach to accomplishing our main goal surrounding the convention – to maintain public safety while ensuring two critical functions: the convention be allowed to successfully conduct its business and protesters be able to exercise their first amendment rights.

Meeting the public safety needs of the convention with a multi-agency police force of 3,800 officers from around the state and country was no small feat. Law enforcement officials worked for nearly two years leading up to the RNC to determine the realm of potential threats to public safety and were firmly committed to preventing them from becoming reality. Thanks to their efforts, FBI, county and local agents executed search warrants at specific locations prior to the convention, and seized items intended to harm and harass police, visitors and businesses, from buckets of urine to explosive materials.

Saint Paul took a decidedly different approach to its police presence than other cities had in previous conventions, including the Democratic National Convention in Denver the previous week. We made a strategic decision to deploy the minimum amount of force necessary to ensure public safety. Instead of greeting visitors with police dressed in full riot gear, we employed officers dressed in ordinary police uniforms, riding bicycles and on horseback, and directed them to remain in small groups so their presence would be less prominent.

Our hope was that this strategy would suffice for the duration of the convention and the police presence on the streets of Saint Paul would be friendly and minimally visible. However, on Monday, our officers were confronted by rioters, intent on doing harm to persons and property in our city and thwarting the convention. At that time we had no choice but for our officers to wear protective riot gear as the escalated threat required a greater show of force and protection.

Despite being spit on, taunted, hit, kicked, and otherwise provoked, law enforcement professionals were patient and exercised restraint by not responding unless and until necessary to ensure public safety. Many of the suspects of crimes committed early in the week were apprehended in subsequent days, thus the arrests were not random but due to their alleged misconduct in previous incidents.

Those who chose to riot not only damaged property in the city, but they interfered with peaceful protesters legitimately attempting to express their opinions and right to free speech. Our efforts ensured that, despite rioters’ attempts, tens of thousands of people were able to exercise their first amendment rights in the form of legal protest marches and demonstrations and a free speech stage, all within sight and sound of the convention, an unprecedented achievement – and something we are very proud of.

Throughout the convention, our officers performed with professionalism, maintaining high integrity in the face of agitators, rioters intent on causing damage, and constant press scrutiny. At the time of an incident, police are trained to control the situation. They err on the side of caution and make their best individual judgments in doing so; however, officers are human. That is why we have a process in place to ensure that we prosecute only those for whom we can provide proof beyond a reasonable doubt of criminal wrongdoing. Without question, there were those who came to the RNC to express themselves peacefully and were pulled into the middle of chaotic scenes and arrested, which is regrettable. We are working diligently with the police and the City Attorney’s office to expedite the legal process as best we can to ensure that justice is served for everyone involved.

This experience is a learning opportunity for our city. We will thoroughly evaluate all of the public safety practices and policies we implemented. An independent review, led by former U.S. Attorney Thomas Heffelfinger and former Assistant U.S. Attorney Andy Luger, is already underway to help us discover the opportunities seized and lessons learned. If the review reveals evidence to substantiate any instances of police misconduct, the individuals involved will be held accountable. Any individuals with firsthand knowledge of specific incidents should contact the Police-Civilian Internal Affairs Review Commission as soon as possible at (651) 266-5583.

Overall, the 2008 Republican National Convention was a success. We were able to showcase our city to 45,000 visitors, including 15,000 members of national and international media. Thousands raised their voices of dissent while the convention successfully conducted its business and delegates were left with a positive experience and impression of our region. In hosting an event of global significance, we planted a seed. We have told our story to the world and positioned Saint Paul well to host future events. On a national and international stage, our city shone in the spotlight, and Saint Paul stands to reap the rewards for years to come.

Thanks again for taking the time to contact my office. Your feedback is invaluable as we work to make Saint Paul the Most Livable City in America.

Sincerely,

§¨©ª

Christopher B. Coleman

Mayor


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Subject: Definition of Heroics

Your Comment: Mr. Coleman I saw you at a DFL delegate meeting in St. Paul this spring while representing the Mounds Park area. At the time I was fairly proud that you represented us in the city. I am no longer proud. Calling fully armored riot police heroic while they beat unarmed citizens is not heroic sir. You ought to be ashamed of yourself. Pepper spraying a young woman while she offers flowers to police is not heroic. Beating a man while he is being held down (with a knee forcing his head into the asphalt) is not heroic. The young people I saw showed no signs of violent resistance. They threw no bricks, broke no windows. They shot silly string back while being maced. Not to mention bystanders were taunted and shot at (with some sort of flare) for standing in a public park while trying to maintain some sense of calm in an escalating situation. Not Heroic.

Suggestions:
1) Disarm the police. Your riot police easily outnumber every group they go after, this causes fear, and more backlash. These kids are not armed, your people are (with deadly weapons).
2) There is no reason to confront (with violence) those who are not using violence. If they are resisting, wait.
3) No out of state police. These officers have no jurisdiction and they have no reason to restrain themselves. They know they will not be held for any crimes committed and they are abusing their power.

The majority is peaceful. Let the kids break a window without having their arms, spines and head broken. The cost of what you are doing is far steeper than the garbage can they tip over.
Honestly,just think about it.

Its the economy stupid

Two days ago I was reading something about how the U.S. was still on top despite being challenged by other major powers in the world because the U.S. economy had only dropped by half of what the rest of the world had.
Most likely this is true, others are so dependent on us (still) that when we drop, they drop more.
I'm guessing today we will get this restated in the stock market. International markets dropped pretty strong today when two of the biggest American financial companies announced yesterday (sat night) that they were done for. One of them is filing for bankruptcy, something that I am sure they will get help with where as the 50-100 million Americans who need help will get none. The other is being bought out by another company (who will probably go to shit in the next year too... but who knows... maybe they are more trust worthy). My family has a lot of stock through this company. I'm sure I will be less wealthy by the end of the day... which is funny cuz I have no idea what I have stock in right now.

Even the former chairman of the fed is saying that McCain's tax/econ policy is stupid. Of course, that guy may be the reason everything is going to shit right now... but if anyone tries to say that conservatives or republicans would be better right now, just punch them in the face for being stupid.

The Invasion

When I was a kid I used to have nightmares whenever I felt something was going really badly. For instance my parents divorce left me with a recurring nightmare about my dad being kidnapped by aliens. This was a dream that never ended because I always woke up at the same moment. When I was in a fight with my older brother, or my parents were, he was eaten by a shark and I was left on a life raft by myself. Lately its more just "unnatural" changes in people, that signal distress in a relationship, usually small behaviors like taking up smoking and seeming distant.

Last night I had two nightmarish dreams about zombies and aliens.
No one specific was in them. I woke up and distrusted everything in my room. I hated my clock which signaled that I had to wake soon. Its now roughly 7:00 and I feel very unrested.
I blame all this on watching this movie last night.





Although I see her in more and more movies (some I even like) I still don't think she is a very good actor.

I just got a big "I miss seeing lex feeling"

I hate missing people, its so not rewarding.

I have been reading about enneagrams, a student gave me a book. (Shes a great person and I love her excitement, I have been borrowing the book for a week and she wants me to finish so she can talk to me about it. Its nice. )
Anyway, one of the enneagrams I seem to identify with has this note about not being able to accept that old relationships might be done. It also said I will have the tendency to not be able to choose between people.

I think these things are sad but true. sucky

different places

You ever have a conversation and something seems slightly off, like nothing has been said specifically, but you feel like maybe this person might be of a different economic class than you, or a different political belief, or something like that?

Its kind of an odd feeling, especially if that person seems to be of a "higher" status than you. Nothing they have said makes it seem like they are looking down on you, but you feel instinctively like they are out of your league in some way.

I had something like that last night. It felt like meeting someone while backpacking. Like you would never for any other reason meet except under these circumstances and thus enjoy it while it lasts, but don't have any ideas beyond that.
Good conversation, shared interests, but it felt like completely different worlds. Maybe I was just distracted and not perceiving things right.

Also, if I were interested in someone, would it still bother me that they were in a business industry?

This is the best part of the trip, this is the part I really like.

On Sex (again)

Sex is such a ridiculous thing.
I watched this movie called Sex and Breakfast last night. It is about two young couples who are experiencing trouble in their relationship, and both assume it is a lack of exciting sex that is the problem. One couple is having a hard time getting off, the other is just bored, not necessarily with each other but with a sex life that has become standard. They go to a group sex therapist, who recommends that they work their problems out with another couple (through intimacy). This is clearly a bad idea for one of the couples and the therapist would have seen that. The other couple expresses some pretty strong doubts, as well as some jealousy issues the day before and the morning before their experiment.

Anyway... in the end, the couple who didn't match, end up breaking up. The other decides that they are ok with just each other.

I couldn't even watch the "sex scene" (I don't think there was nudity in the movie) but it was just too awful to watch two couples being pushed into something that was primarily jealousy driven.

Throughout the movie I became more opinionated about my own beliefs on the subject -which is that, it may work for some people, but that is a limited group of people, who are probably very mature, open and on the same page in terms of desires and comfort level with each other.

I have never been in a relationship that I wanted to share the other person in that way, I probably never will be. -Now that could be taken as a slightly sort of misogynist statement, as if I have the right/power to share or not share, I think it is more about the choices people make... if someone I cared about made such a choice, I would have a hard time trusting them... thus I would probably not be in that relationship very long.

On the other hand...
Most people I know are in some way desiring sex/intimacy. Those in relationships (of all kinds) tend to be working out their desires with their partners, negotiating the boundaries of what they do and don't like, and in what cases they are and are not willing to.
Those without, are either seeking, or not seeking for various reasons.
but isn't it funny that we all have this drive, that so many of us are not pursuing, even when we could be?
A quick run through craigslist shows people of all types and all desires are available.
How many of us will spend a quarter or half our lives with out this aspect of our life being "fulfilled" because of social taboos, because of lack of partner, because of self confidence issues, because of our ideas about what is and should be acceptable, because we are unwilling or maybe too willing to give out this part of us, because we are holding out for "the right person" or "the right situation."
At school in our sex ed class we are exploring a lot of aspects of sex/gender and sexual orientation. It reminds me of all the historical and cultural beliefs I have learned about... it reminds me of the thousands of years humans have been having sex in every single variation.
It reminds me that humanity is not sex, but without sex humanity would be non-existent. It reminds me that pleasure is necessary for survival as well as a driving force in most human aspects of life.
Of course all this also reminds me that I am not doing any of this, and though I can count off the half of my friends who are in the same boat, my mind tends to focus more on the other half, who's ideas of love, sex and intimacy (no better or worse than mine) are different enough that they are finding fulfillment in this area, whether the other aspects of their relationship are fulfilling or not.
Of course all of this is based on ideas and not solid evidence.
Anyway.... thats what I have been thinking about.



Also I thought Burn After Reading was hilarious.

For those asking

I'm doing really well.
I seem to sleep a little too much. but I suppose thats kind of ok, if I am waking up at 6 AM.
-my days seem to include a 3 hour nap, and a 4 hour main sleep.

Work is good.

I seem to get a movie in every few days, which leaves blockbuster angry, but me satisfied.

I am not writing (or updating) as often, usually because I either don't have anything to say, or it is all work related.

I am enjoying a lot of music.

I haven't been drawing or painting in the last few weeks... my paints and two pieces are in the works at becky's apartment.

I miss some friends who have been out of town.

I seem to be purposefully creating "crush" situations, in which I meet someone and rather than pursuing a friendship like normal, I am (usually out of fear) avoiding them, but sort of wondering on the sidelines about who they are.
I haven't had a crush in a long time, so these really small interests are kind of fun.
The fear part bothers me, but I am fairly aware that the most likely scenario if I were to ask about them etc, would be that we become friends which would be sweet, but new friends aren't necessarily a priority in my life right now.
I dunno maybe the whole thing I just wrote is bullshit.

We are in dire need of a roommate and will probably be doing the craigslist thing soon.
its funny because several of my students are looking for housing in the area right now... but of course that wouldn't be ok.

Yep

At work we are having a lot of trouble with issues of identity, group identity, me vs other.
Some students are so "advanced" they forget what its like to be introduced to these ideas and concepts, making the "advanced" students comments sound like close minded rants. "I'm right, I'm morally right, I'm intellectually right, I'm right because the teachers say so." <---this is not their argument, but it is what it must sound like to those newly exposed.

Then we have those who are so repulsed by this that they are repressing themselves, they can't speak for fear of being trounced on... and they would be - and that's sad.

Its sad like when I laugh and talk down about people who are conservative, or who vote republican, or who don't vote at all. As if they knew nothing, or didn't know enough. As if I was some sort of perfect judge. That of course I am not.

They won't speak for the pride of their own values, for the defense of them. For their parents, their language, the way they see life... who wants to be told that what they see isn't right? Who could bare that? And in any case, it could never be true... except to say that they are only partially right, making them partially wrong. But is it wrong to believe something negative about others when in every real life case it seems to be validated? "Those people are weird."
Yes, they are, but does that have to be a negative?
What if we joined them? Would it be so bad? What if we already were them? Would it be so hard to enjoy?

And then there are those like the first who believe they are "advanced" for we all think we are "advanced." But their assumptions keep them from seeing the value of others feelings. For in a Utopian world we would all be heard, but none of us would have anything to complain about. These students, so sure of their Utopian dreams, they forget the reality, some are oppressed, and the oppression of one part of society (without validation) becomes the oppression and injustice that drags us all down.


________________________________________________________________

It's a lot easier to say these things when they are separate from us.
The other day I asked my students what a gang was? and if it was negative.
We picked it apart, we analyzed, compared and contrasted. We concluded that it was a group of people, an organization, and like all human organizations, will have negative and positive.

frats, social clubs, militias and the military, mafia, political parties, activist orgs, etc etc etc.

positive and negative.

I wish I could snap kids out of their worlds for a second. Its not so simple.


These people are you and you are them.

RNC ....

I have been wanting to say something about the last week. Originally I was waiting for videos and photos to help make the picture clear. Now I am not quite sure what to say. Maybe I have already said it. Maybe this is all too big for a nice neat wrap up. All I know is that I have some photos and videos and some memories of things I never wanted to see on my streets.

I know the songs from this band seem to make a lot more sense.

I know I have been contributing to this political bloggers comment board and that I firmly disagree with many of the people posting.

I know my students did some pretty courageous things.

I know have more distrust of the police than ever.

I think I'm starting to be able to see how hard it is to change a powerful system that is failing, and that it seems intent on choking us all while it falls.
And the whole thing pisses me off and makes me sad for us all.

rnc welcoming committee speaks out.

this is great. or at least what i have seen so far. WATCH the lower video first!!!

just some lyrics in my head before bed

gonna write a song for ya, gonna write a song for you, my love.


No, I know no one said it was gonna be easy,
but sweet jesus who wants to sleep with me?

current one is great.
http://www.asofterworld.com/

This is a great view of something I saw last night but couldnt capture on video
http://www.cnn.com/2008/POLITICS/09/05/rnc.protests/index.html?iref=newssearch#cnnSTCVideo


ok so apparently this link doesnt work right. you have to go to the clip, look down below where there are other videos and click on the one that says something like "protesters roughed up"

swell tering heat

I spent the day at a series of concerts. Taking pictures. Video taping, sometimes talking to people. It was a good day. I enjoyed it. But I also realized there isn't much need for another camera man out there. So many people taking pictures and videos... I don't know if its worth anything. Sure I like them... so I will probably continue... but is it necessary... not so much.
I had a great day but on three hours of sleep... so when i returned home around 7ish... I passed out hardcore.
Woke around 10:30-11:00 hungry. Also with less energy and less excitement.
I feel like the world is passing me by right now... which is crazy because I am being offered everything on a plate. Still there is something missing.

If I wake up early tomorrow. I will go to the capital and spend the day in St. Paul. Harriet Island and other events.